my age.

want to piss me off?
bring up my age and how in 22 years there's no way i've learned a damn thing.
this post will be angy, things will be misspelled, and yes i'm ranting....so if you're an english teacher you can stop reading now.

in my program, in my work, and in the classroom i am always being discriminated against for my age.
i graduated high school at 17 because my birthday was the day after.
i graduated from college at 20 because i hustled through in 3 years.
i am now 22 and will graduate with an MC degree (masters of counseling).

First let me say that i know that i am young and i know that i have a LOT to learn, but that doesn't mean i don't know what i'm talking about. elderly people are the wisest people we have in this world which is why i love and respect them. i go out of my way to learn from my grandparents,  family members, friends, community members, and professors (young and old) .

i wouldn't be where i'm at today if if was a dumb shit. i didn't work this hard to get where i am at so that 30-40 year olds can sit there and tell me "oh its because you're young" "thats cute" "you don't know much" "how would you know sweetie, you're so young" every single day. i worked this hard because i LOVE what i do. counseling people and improving people's mental health is my passion and THAT is why i rushed through to get here, so that i could make a difference as soon as possible.

Wisdom does come with age, its unfortunate that manners don't.
i am the "token slacker" in class because people assume i didnt do my homework, or didn't do the reading, or have nothing to say because i was too busy partying all weekend.
well let me just say, i stay in most weekends and study not so i can have something to say in class (and kiss ass) but so that i can learn. However, if i do want to go out and wear an outfit you wish you could still wear...it's none of your damn business.

close your mouth
open your ears
and listen to what i have to say.

going on holiday

howdy ya'll

i'm headed back to texas tomorrow night 

hope everybody has a lovely holiday 

happy turkey day folks! 

xo

c

passion

Passion can be defined in a number of ways and rather than copy and paste the definition to take up space (and look like I actually wrote something) I'll give you my 2 cents.

Passion is what makes you tick.
Passion is the reason you get out of bed in the morning.
Passion is why you get excited to get your day started.

When we were younger we wanted to be firefighters, superheros, or Cindy Crawford (don't judge me) and at some point we stopped. We continued with school and learned that we have a slim chance of becoming the next Micheal Jordan and settled for being an accountant.
Why? At what point did we say, that's not going to happen I better figure something else out?

For me, I realized that I am not tiny, super tall, and have no desire to hit the gym everyday to look flawless.
I love what I do, but is that settling or compromising?
I don't think so...BUT I feel like there is so much more I want to do with my life.
Counseling is my passion.
It's what makes me drive an hour in traffic to an internship site I hate going to.
My clients progress is what makes me get out of bed everyday.
So why am I doubting myself?
I graduate in may 2010 with my MC degree and should be looking for jobs and getting ready to move on with my life. But something is missing, there's an itch i need to scratch.

I come from a family of entrepreneurs and I'm finding more and more that I have this strong desire to follow in their footsteps and create a business of my own. My last post mentioned my idea of WINKS and while I'm not ready to discuss it on here now it's on my mind all day everyday. What kind lighting do I want? Where should i set up shop? etc, etc, etc.

so....what do i do? where do i go? when do i start?
I'm still sorting this all out, I'll be writing everyday to figure it out.

Thanks for reading,
c

abitious little bugger

i have a new business idea that i am extremely excited about

i'm calling it winks

that's all i'm going to say about it....for now

xo
c

great song

Sometimes
I think of what my mother told me
To come home if I feel lonely
I feel lonely now

Maybe
I should pack up all my belongings
Head out west and take it easy
Take it easy, easy

Sometimes
I forget what I’ve been given
I confuse the past and present
I think that it’s a dream

This time
I think that is where we differ
That were more than what we should have been
Should have been more clear
Should have been before
Should have been before

Sometimes
I think of what my mother told me
To come home if I feel lonely
And I feel now

 

Song by Idiosympathy

<3

Love is...

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection^[1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love^[2] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.^[3] Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in thecreative arts. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love

"Love is friendship set on fire." - unknown

"Loves makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place." - Zora Neale Hurston

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
- Woody Allen

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

What is love to you?
c

my.life.in.bullet.format.

• monday - substance abuse midterm 
• tuesday - work at internship 
• wednesday - woke up super late for work and rachcakes came in town 
• thursday - work, chino bandido (amazing), class, dinner w rachcakes
• friday - work at internship and oh my goodness its insane, rachel and i stayed in like dorks
• saturday - halloweenie night! rachTORNADO and celPEACOCK rocked it on mill 
• sunday - rachel left ): and now i'm studying for my MC comprehensive exam...its tomorrow! 

wish me luck

c