ordinary.

today I've spent a good part of my time pondering the role I play in the world
it's something I think about every now and again, especially when making decisions of how I want to spend my life and when I motivate myself to work harder
but today was different...
I thought about how hard I've worked the past few years, hustling through college and busting my bum to get where I'm at today. So now I'm here, this is what I thought I've worked for knowing it would take me to the next step. Now that I'm here, I don't know exactly how I feel about it or what that "next step" is. I've thought about how badly I want to help the community I live in (wherever that may be) and help those in need. But then there's the business driven daddy's girl within me that loves the hustle, loves to network, and loves the challenge.
Potential careers I'd love to have include:

• work in a counseling firm
  
• have my own practice
• establish a non profit organization for at-risk adolescents
  
• have my own bakery that pairs cupcakes with beer and wine
• have my own (separate) bakery that is frilly and serves cupcakes with tea
• open up a store like buffalo exchange but with baby clothes, they grow so fast!
  
• design and create my own accessories (dressing conservative for sessions gets old)
  

I will be satisfied when I fulfill 6 out of 7 of those goals, the last one I kind of do when I have free time but to be committed to it I'm sure would become a job and not a hobby.
So what do I do?
my goals are in no way related to each other and there's only so much time we have in life

I've decided I'm going to do it all, somehow someway
It will take me a while, but I can't feel this way anymore
being ordinary and being sedentary are two different things


so I'm off to try a new cupcake recipe, get some research done, and study for next week's sessions...juggling is something I do everyday

xo
c

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."
- Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail, favorite quote of all time